What a mess. The desk I mean. It’s my son’s. I have been using it now for a while, because he mainly stores things on the table. He hasn’t really found any other use for it. The table would compare to Great Pacific Garbage Patch, unless it had everything essential on it: my hairdryer, my headphones, his football cup trophy, his chocolate (haven’t taken any!), my iPhone, a cup of coffee, my computer and a copy of Burrell’s and Morgan’s book “Sociological Paradigms and Organisational Analysis – Elements of the Sociology of Corporate Life.” I’ve been reading it about 15 pages – the same pages again and again, because the English in it is so hard to understand. Just kidding – it’s the font that makes it difficult, don’t you think?
I’m on holiday today. But my head is at work. It’s been working since 5 a.m. Because of the aching thumb. You know I went for a swim last night with my youngest daughter and her friend. I guess it didn’t like the swim. The thumb I mean. Otherwise it was so fun and the girls enjoyed it. So did I – at least for a while I was the world’s best mom. An identity I’ve had since 1994.
But tomorrow I will have another identity besides that. From tomorrow on I will be the Quality Manager of Lapland University of Applied Sciences, which means that this day is the last official day for me as the acting Rector of Kemi-Tornio University of Applied Sciences. I spoke with my husband last night about my identity change from the acting Rector to the Quality Manager. I used the word “Simsalabim” to describe the change which will happen tonight.
Okay, I suppose it is a bit difficult to say how this identity change is going to happen eventually, but for sure it has already had and it will have some very concrete consequences: I’ve moved to another room, I will cut the Business Eurocard into two pieces today and from tomorrow on I can spend my holidays where ever I want, because nobody wants my signature anymore.
Don’t get me wrong (I know you did already); I’m mentioning these things only because of my PhD work, which is about power and sensemaking. Office, company credit card and a license to sign are the power classics – you can see them and you can use them. But power is really something else than you can see or use. Just take a look at “the Sopranos” for example. I’ve started it from the beginning, because I love it. James Gandolfini is brilliant in his role as the fictional Mafia Capo Tony Soprano. You can see him at work, at home – and in therapy. Struggling of course with power issues and trying to make sense of his life. Just like anyone else – powerful or powerless.
So, this is it then, the last day of the Kemi-Tornio University of Applied Sciences. And this is my last piece of writing as the acting Rector. My map of reality will be – again – a little bit different from tomorrow on. Let’s keep in mind however, that no matter who is in charge, people make the best decisions they can at the time – according to their map of reality. And this reality is something I’m going to study for the next two to three years in my PhD work. If we want to change things, it is the map of reality that must be changed. Otherwise everything remains the same. You know change is a change in meaning only. So, let’s get on with it and make sense (meaning) of this change together.
PS1. A bit lame ending, I know. But this is what they do nowadays in all American series. You know – the voice just before the ending texts summing up the events of the last 60 minutes in a philosophic way. Because otherwise you wouldn’t get it, would you? Repetitio mater studiorum est. And assumption is the mother of all f#ck-ups. A lesson learnt from Steven Seagal.
PS2. If you haven’t watched the Sopranos before, do not pay too much attention to the violence. Pay attention to the way the mob bosses greet and speak to each other – and how they are dressed. By the way, an advice James got from a real capo was: “Don’t wear shorts.”